So it's nothing to fuss about, but tomorrow 04/07 (let's ignore American Independence day for a second) I will be saying farewell to my teenage years and HELLO THERE to being 20. Sigh. When I turned 19, I told myself I wanted to enjoy my last year as a teenager and do something...different. Did I do something absolutely crazy and wild? No. Did I learn a lot? Yes. I can honestly say I learned the biggest lesson once I turned 19. It's gonna sound cliche, cheesy, and all that other cringey stuff, but it's something I now live by:
For so long in my life, I've been making my decisions based on what other people think. 'Oh but what would she say if i done blah blah blah' 'What would he think of me if I done bleh bleh bleh'. It got to a point where I felt like I couldn't be me, I wasn't being true to myself, and IT WAS JUST A BIG GODDAMN LIE. And it wasn't nice. It then one day occurred to me 'what the hell is the use of caring about these people?' Let's be real, I doubt any of them consider what the hell I would think before they make a decision. I still remember the day where I finally decided 'enough is enough' and I started doing things for me, and living for me. I can honestly say, it was the most liberating feeling ever, and something I think everyone should experience, 'cause it was AMAZING.