half way through the year and I'm laying here, ill and lost. I'm happy that I've gotten through so much this year, and yet I still feel like it is not enough?! Why does the world make us constantly feel like whatever battles we go through they're minor, in comparison to the battles other places/people have to go through...surely that's not fair? I don't know. I don't know a lot of things, which is why I'm constantly questioning, and yet sometimes I feel like I know so much I'm going to explode. All I'm
certain of is the fact that I want to rip my face off because of this
damn cold or hayfever or whatever the hell it is. Oh face, why do you
pain me so? University is over and I don't want to think about what comes
next...What comes next?! What do you want to do with your life now, Zaineb? I don't know... how am I meant to know...I'm only just about to turn 21...why should I know?! I can't ever pick which chocolate bar I want from the shop and yet I'm meant to be able to decide about these 'adult' things?!?! I want someone to come and tell me what to do
with my life... and at the same time I want to be in control and tell them
to shut up and stop talking. I don't even know myself and yet I'm meant
to decide who I am and what I want to do....I want to lay here in my sweat forever,
drowning in my thoughts until they suffocate me. Maybe then I'll reach
some sort of epiphany. I don't want to go outside, it's sunny and I can't handle the heat. I can't handle the heat metaphorically speaking too. Maybe that's why I'm feeling so COLD (oh what an excellent pun Zaineb, well done)...I want to stay inside forever and I want to fall asleep in the bath...I want to be clean.
Clean from everything. Someone feed me ice cream and cake and tell me I'm the best and that good things are coming...
I don't exactly know what this post is going to be about...or where it is heading..but I feel I need to post it because it is an issue which has really bothered me for as long as I can remember. I have one (alongside MANY) questions I need the answer to: WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DESPERATE TO BE DIFFERENT?
And by different it seems these people want to appear: geeky, unsociable, friendless etc etc etc. All the things that back in the day was not 'cool' but now all of a sudden is. I'm not saying being any of these things is wrong...but when you clearly aren't, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee go fuck yourself. Please? Have you done it yet? HAVE YOU?!!?!?!
Do you not realise in your apparent 'difference' you are all the goddamn same?!?!?!?!?!!? This new fashion going around where people claim to be the very things they aren't for one thing: POPULARITY AND LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE.
Nothing irks me more than seeing idiots on SOCIAL networking claiming things like 'i have no friends, i only have my internet friends...' ............. THAT ELLIPSES RIGHT THERE THAT I JUST DID WAS TO SHOW YOU ALL THAT WORDS CAN NOT EXPLAIN HOW MUCH THAT SHIT PISSES ME OFF!! ........................ THERE IT IS AGAIN. I AM SPEECHLESS. Well I'm not but seriously sometimes I just...NO WORDS!!!!!!
Internet friends or real life friends...THEY ARE FRIENDS. YOU ARE ON A SOOOOOOOCIAL NETWORK SITE AND ARE THEREFORE SOCIALISING. WELCOME TO MODERNITY BITCHES. Pleaseeee stop acting like your very existence isn't about pleasing other people...because it is, and I know it. I know you care about how many followers you have, and I know that tweet your just wrote was an indirect to get a certain someones attention, so shut up.
It's okay to be smart and into your books, and into star wars and whatever other shit.There's no need to friggin emphasise it to the world. Okay you read, okay you're a bit 'geeky', STOP FUCKING TELLING US! We will realise it without you having to rub it in our faces. Yay you are so smart you read books and you like to drink tea and hide away from the world........... whilst telling us ALL YOU LIKE TO DO THAT. LIAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIAR I TELL YOU!!!!!!!!!!!! Ohhhhhhhhh you smoke weed??!?!?!?! O M G YOU ARE SO COOL NO ONE ELSE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD DOES THIS?!?!?!?! SO PLEASE TELL ME MORE ABOUT HOW YOU ARE ABOUT TO 'BILL A ZOOT' AND SMOKE BY YOURSELF IN BED WITH MUNCHIES heheheheheheeh. Whilst you are at it, why don't you also go and post a photo of how you are an introvert and you find it so hard to open up to people and to be friends with people and to speak to people, so you can gain a few retweets and socially bond with those who retweeted you? WHY DON'T YOU ALSO POST THIS ON INSTAGRAM, FACEBOOK AND WHEREVER ELSE TO LET MANY OTHER PEOPLE KNOW?
Moral of the story: STOP LYING, YOU LOVE PEOPLE AND YOU THRIVE OFF THEIR ACCEPTANCE/ATTENTION
It's just human nature so stop denying it.
There are REAL unsociable people out there, and people like you are pissing them off. You piss face.
You're probably wondering if I am one of these said unsociable people, I may be...I DIE off all social networking sites because my hate for people is so strong...BUT I SHALL NOT SIT HERE CLAIMING THINGS WHICH ARE ABSURD AND NOT TRUE.
BE YOURSELF. STOP FORCING A PERSONALITY. PEOPLE WILL REALISE YOUR PERSONALITY IF IT IS GENUINE. STOP DOING THINGS BECAUSE YOU THINK THEY ARE COOL. Gosh I feel like I am speaking to children. These seem like basic things why does no one obide by these things?! WHY :'(
I must admit, it has felt wonderful unleashing on the keyboard. If you find my ranting annoying, and think this blog is full of negativity, then how about you stop being so cuss-worthy and mayyyybe give me something to be positive about?!
One of my favourite things in the world to eat is a big FAT juiceh burger. What is not to love about a fat piece of meat wedged between crispy yet soft bread, slathered in some sorta sexy sauce? The correct answer to this is 'nothing'. I think Gourmet Burger Kitchen is probably the most underrated Burger place there is. My sister and I went to the one in Stratford Westfield. I liked the location of the restraurant itself, its situated in the corner of all of them, and it was very spacious which I believe is important when eating messay food. You do not want to feel cramped or be too close to another table of peopole. This post isn't so much about the restaurant itself, but more about its burgers. I do love me a good ol' burger if you haven't realised that already.
My favourite thing about GBK is if you can't pick what burger you want from their ready made selections, or you are the type of person who sees one thing then sees another and wants that (me in a nutshell) you can just go for a classic burger (meat, salad, sauce) and then add in what you want. That's what I did 'cause I'M AN INDECISIVE FOOL I TELL YOU!!! This is the beauty I created:
LOOK AT THAT FRIED EGG!!! Eggs are an amazing ingredient to pretty much eanything. Whoever said eggs are just for breakfast lied. An egg can transform anything to something better, any time of day. And just look at the yolky goodness ooooozing out of it. GBK don't hold back on that ooze. I have never once received an egg that does not greet me with its sunshine like glory. Trust me, I have had eggs in burgers, or on pizzas that were meant to be fried to prefection, and literally felt and looked like a Haribo egg. Don't get me wrong, I like haribo eggs, but not in my burger! The buns have that great crisp outside that is slightly grilled, and the inside is soft enough to nestle the meat. My favourite thing is that the bun gets slighlty soaked with the egg, and thats when you know you have a good bun! Oh, and check out the beautiful bit of teeny salad just to make you feel slightly less fat. Thanks GBK- you so thoughtful!!! So my burger consisted of the beef (you can ask for how you like it, medium well in my case) the fried egg, cheese <3, salad, relish, mayo. I could have been more creative, as there is a variety of fillings available, but for today, this did me quite well. That's what is great about GBK, you can always switch it up.
With every bite, my sister and I kept saying how amazing it was. The staff must of been so freaked out by us. We seriusly looked like we had never eaten in our lives. You know when staff walk up to your table and ask you if everything is okay, each time we just gazed back at them with food on our faces, a mouth full, big beaming eyes, and just nodded. Sigh.
This was my first bite. Oh the first bite. That first bite will last with me forever.Just seeing the cheese in its glorified greatness is bringing wonderful memories. I do suggest adding cheese to your burger. If you do not like cheese, I have no words for you. That's a lie, I do; no. NO and no. That explains my sentiments towards cheese haters haha. Yes I did eat this beast with my hands. Burgers are for hands, not cutlery! But boy does it get messy. I dont care though, licking my fingers was AMAZINGLY FUN and added new taste dimensions (no not dirt, I assure you my hands were clean). I feel I need to apologise for the longness of my nose, however, I think it adds a bit of something-something to this photo, and makes it look like I really was nestling my face into those buns (this sounds like some messed up porno...I assure you... it is).
I would like to leave with these beautiful and meaningful words:
BURGERS ARE THE BEST.
p.s. I come pretty close, now that explains their greatness ;)